Wars

I have some wars going on.

I have a war with the log book. always trying to beat my last numbers.

I have a war with my books. trying to learn and absorb everything I possibly can.

I have lots of war. But I also have a new war. the food war.

I've eaten "big" before, but it was sloppy.

I've eaten little before, and been hungry, but it wasn't too bad.

Now I'm eating good, clean foods, in excess.

and Its actually one of the hardest things I've ever done. trying to gain quality weight is NOT easy.

my carbs were upped quite a bit last week, and Its almost breaking me. I'm not eating enough, I know this. I'm barely getting the correct amount of food I should be getting in, and most days I'm missing my last meal from flat out not being hungry.

my solution? I'm going to start timing myself. forcing myself to eat if my appetite is playing games with me.

getting B.I.G.

So, had my assessment recently with my nutrition/workout coach, Ken Hill. Said I'm doing great, on track, and to really push for some gains here.

I LOVE gaining. just i hands down need to be supervised, or ill get wildly out of control and really start to gain some unwanted fat. I've been caught up in the scale before, getting as high as 245, and believe me on 2 fronts:
I would LOVE to be that weight again, and
I was HORRIBLY fat at that weight. it was not pretty.

this time around I'd love to be much better in my gains. especially seeing as the BIGGEST change in the past year has been me NOT just moving weight around, but actually lifting the weights correctly.
I would also say that continuous tension (aka not pausing @ the top) has helped me MUCH more, in a sense of saving my joints/rotators in the long run.

Yes, I'm still training heavy, but heavy is relative. me pausing @ the top never really worked, and yes i could move MUCH more weight when i was pausing, but i wasn't FEELING the muscles groups that were working.

so now, I do slow things down, and i do a BIT more volume, but nothing crazy.

till next time

March 7th, 2011

So, I've decided to try to keep people up to date on what I personally do.

whether or not people decide to follow is up to them. but this is going to take a look more closely into my training, nutrition and supplementation to take me to my goal.

what IS my goal?

I want to compete. I want to get up on stage, and stand next to other men who have come to show off what they have achieved in the gym.

I have no aspiration to be the next Mr. Olympia. I know that my genetic card just isn't there, BUT that doesn't mean I'm not going to push the envelope and see what i can do.

currently, In the morning, I am 216.4 lbs. for me, I am decently lean (for most people, this wouldn't be lean at all) and progressing. I currently have employed the help of Ken "skip" hill to help me with my training and my nutrition. I am not only learning from him, but He is keeping me honest at the same time by having someone to adhere to myself.

I have been using nutritionists other than myself now for a year, and I REALLY enjoy it. As I said i get to learn, and its a massive help while keeping all my clients in line, I can have someone else take care of myself.

Tomorrow I'm training back and biceps. my nutrition is really in overdrive at the moment, in a sense of I'm eating a lot of food for me, and most days I REALLY love it.

I'm still doing carb cycling in a sense, where I have days higher in carbs, aka my workout days, and days lower in carbs, aka off/non training days. THis helps a lot to keep my bodyfat in check, while still giving me the food/reserves to blast through the workouts.

my intensity level is still up, where as I don't have a training partner (except for legs which I currently do on Saturdays with my friend Dylan) I am still doing very well motoring along myself.

I dieted down to 177.6 around mid november, and was very skinny for me.I hated it, and wanted to gain weight immediately. I'm healthy and back up in weight again, which is exactly what I want.

what do I expect/plan on happening?

I know skip has a plan for me, but as anyone knows, 216 at 6'1'' is not terribly big (especially not being on stage) at all. I would like to try my first show as a light heavy, which i BELIEVE 198 lbs is the cutoff for that.

I think i should be able to get up to around 230-240, and then be able to diet down to around that, and be pretty in shape then. I'm really trying hard this offseason to keep the bodyfat in check, keep on my stretches/foam rolling/maintenance, and make the goals i have for myself happen.

I will probably be sharing my motivations, trials and tribulations of myself on here for people to follow.

so whats going on right now in my life?

well, I'm super busy as per usual with my nutrition/personal training business, just the way I like it. things are going great, but the food is becoming hard to get down at times. I know i can do it, its just me being a baby. suck it up, buttercup.

other than that, I'm loving the training. 3X per week is so on the money for me. I blast the SNOT out of the weights, and then pack up and thats all. it works very well for me.